Blogging as a dying man to dying men...

[Caption: Local attractive woman poses with Frankenstein impersonator flashing unknown gang symbols. Lady was quoted: "I felt sorry for him and wanted him to be happy in his delusional state ... and he's kinda cute."] Today, we completed our fourth chemo treatment. Can't thank you enough for your prayers. The men of our church again came to our house to provide the best encouragement of prayer and concern and love for us and our family. Going into the 4th treatment, I had

God likes to take away my idols. I am constantly struggling with them, and the more I deal with my condition, the more deep-rooted my idolatry is exposed. Therefore, I don't claim to have mastered anything of which I write, but as I struggle and write, I hope they help us all to worship our beautiful Lord more faithfully. Therefore, these blogs are often the result of my struggles at the time. While God continues to drown me in His grace, the posts also are a reflection o

One of the things we have done with the kids over the years is read through the Chronicles of Narnia. Recently, we finished a section of the book that has one of my favorite quote in the series... well of most any literature outside of the Bible really. When the young children are meeting with the Beaver family and hearing about Aslan for the first time, they're concerned to find out he is a lion. To which, they ask: "Is he safe?" Mr. Beaver replies, "Safe? ... Who said any

Even under the threat of mortality, I can make too much of myself. If you've been reading the blog from the beginning, you know one of my main goals was not to charge God with any wrongdoing. Over the last couple months, it seems I've added to that goal ... and thanks to a few brothers today, I've been reminded that some goals need to be tempered by God's grace. I got a call from a long-time friend tonight. This is a friend I knew at the AF Academy, and we had the blessing o

Yesterday, we completed our 3rd oil change / Chemo infusion. Very thankful all went well with the infusion. Thank you for your prayers. We also got the results of our first CT scan. We got some great results from the cancer responding to the chemo after just 2 treatments. The doc and his assistant were very impressed with how effective the first two rounds have gone. They both said they're not used to seeing that kind of response. I also know my beloved had some vindica

"I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living." I have seen the Lord's goodness in the land of the living. When one of our elders first mentioned he was going to ask some men to come pray for me before our first chemo treatment, I thought it would be a one-time thing. It's now the night before the 3rd treatment, and they still come. These men impress me. They come and pray for me. They pray I get healed. They pray for my chil

I have a recurring dream since I've been sick. I don't share it to evoke pity. I share it to make a point. It is a painful dream, but real nonetheless. In my dream, I'm on my deathbed in my last moments, and I'm interacting with one of my young children. I'm very anxious in the dream... to the point of being flustered. I can't make up my mind if I want to share more truth from God's Word with my kids, or if I just want to hold them in silence. I tend to be awoken from th